I am going to be honest here, well I always am but this post is a little less chipper then most. I am having a hard time this year with getting in the Holiday Spirit. I know you have seen lots of posts on Christmas shopping, baking and decorating. But as Christmas drew closer I was actually less and less excited. While normally I look forward to Christmas time all year long, and embrace everything that comes with the season, this year… not so much. I find myself working hard to do the things that normally I would be super excited about, digging deep to try to find some holiday cheer.
Before this year I never understood when people said, they are not in the Christmas Spirit, but this year I finally get it. Instead of looking forward to seeing friends and family, decorating the tree, and wrapping gifts I just felt exhausted. Like I am spending my days running everywhere. To work, home from work, scrambling to make dinner, try to do something productive in the evening while still spending time with the kids, blogging and *trying* to get to bed at a half decent hour. Running, running, running with long to do lists in my hand.
I was not even looking forward to my vacation from work, as we had events going on pretty much ever day. There was no rest or holiday cheer in sight! I even had a the thought of maybe we won’t bother putting up a Christmas tree this year. Something I would have never ever suggested before. I love having a real Christmas tree, decorating with all of our ornaments that have so much meaning behind each one.
That was my wake up call – Kate you are doing this wrong. Christmas is supposed to be a fun time with family and friends. Who cares that all the presents are not wrapped with paper this year, who cares that the house is a mess… at least there is food! Little Bear gave me the most PERFECT gift from day care this year, and I have never needed the reminder more….
This year I managed to muddle through Christmas and go through all motions but my heart was not in it. Now that I have had day to myself to regroup, I am feeling a bit more like my old self. We are going to spend a quiet New Years with the kids and just decompress a little. My goal for next Christmas is to be a little more organized, and to find my Holiday Spirit again. After all Christmas is magic.